Tuesday, March 2, 2010

today is a good day

This past Monday kind of stunk.
Is there any one out there that has rough "times of the month"? I mean, seriously, what is up with the cramps and the depression?
Come on life!
I finally feel better today though, thank goodness.
I have decided to eat healthier (as I eat my last bit of bad food- Pringles) and I am going to start to go to the gym.
Summer is coming...that means bathing suit season, uuuggghhh.
Why is there so much pressure on looking good? Who decides these things?
Is there anyone else out there who thinks those stupid magazines that set the standards for what looks "attractive"?

Military. Military. Military.
Why is this all my life has turned into?
What happened to being normal?
I fell in love with a Military man.
Why, oh why?
As crazy as it is, I have done a lot of research on being an army wife
http://armywives.com/
And all of these women, God bless their strength, seem to not be worried about their significant others being deployed.
How can you not be?
My fiance isn't even in yet and I have nightmares now!
However, I can say that I can live without the snoring (just kidding!).
How do you survive? How on earth do you battle the loneliness and uncertainties?
If there is anyone out there that can tell me please do,
cjh2262@email.vccs.edu .
There is so much that I struggle with, like why can't he choose a safer profession?
Sometimes I feel like he cares about me, but I am second best.
I wanted to do Peace Corp nursing.
I gave it up.
Because I wanted to be with him.
Is it silly of me to want the same respect?
I guess I can't though, if you love someone you can't ask them to give up their dreams.
He never asked, I did it myself.
But still.


Oh I don't know anything anymore.
"The more I see the less I know."

God Bless all of the troops,
I hope that you can come home to those that love you.